One Day.......

To Chase and Alex,

One day you won't need me to rock you to sleep anymore. But until that day, I will hold you tight and feel your tiny heart beating against my chest. I will smell the sweet baby smell of your hair and I will watch your chest rise and fall with each sleepy breath.

One day you won't need me to pull you to my breast to feed you. But until that day, I will cherish the quiet time spent watching you draw nourishment from my body that has been created especially for you.

One day, you won't need me to bathe you. But until that day, I will smile and laugh with you while you splash in the warm water. I will hold the sweet sound of happiness close to my heart and store those moments in a precious box in a mind that is already overflowing with beautiful memories of the short time I have had you here.

One day, you won't need me to lay in bed next to you reading your favourite book for the tenth time before sleep claims you. But until that day, I will hold you close and watch the wonder in your eyes and the pure joy that comes as you immerse yourself in the story.

One day you won't want me to play games with you anymore. But until that day, we will climb ladders and slide down snakes, kick a ball around and pretend that we are having an adventure walking through the trees. I will wonder at your creativity and immerse myself in the worlds that you create during our adventures.

One day you won't want to dance around the house with me to the latest number one hit. But until that day, I will twirl and spin and twerk till I drop just to watch you belly laughng and strutting your stuff across the floor.

One day you won't want me to walk you to school or pick you up anymore. But until that day, my phone will remain in my pocket and I will listen to you telling me all about your day. I will live through your animated stories and the new things you learnt that day. I will hold you close when you're upset about playground arguments and laugh with you at the jokes you and your friends played on each other. I will tenderly hold each of those words like the petals of a delicate flower that is slipping away with every minute that ticks by.

One day you won't want me to help you with your homework. But until that day I will sit with you and share what I know. I will find ways to help you understand where you struggle, celebrate your successes and encourage you to keep trying when it doesn't work out the first time around.

One day you will stop sitting with me on a night time, watching telly, listening to music or chatting. But until that day I will treasure those nights. I will enjoy the shower thoughts conversations. I will laugh at you laughing at a movie that you have already seen a dozen times and give you a hug when something you're watching brings you to tears. Those moments are utterly perfect in their simplicity.

One day, I will no longer be the most important woman in your life. But until that day I will treasure every kiss, every hug and every moment that I get to spend with you.

One day you will be father, teacher, confidante, comfort and constant in the life of your children and I will look on with pride, love and honour that I was able to be such an integral part of your life.

I hope you know that whatever you do and wherever you go in this life, I will always love you. The memories of watching you grow up and become the strong, noble, great man that I am watching you grow into every single day will be treasured more than anything else in my life.

You have been my greatest joy.

You have been my hardest lessons.

You have given me purpose beyond anything I could have everr imagiined and you have turned me into who I am today,

You are truly my greatest achievement.

Thank you for choosing me to be your mother and for making my life so much more than I could have ever imagined.

Thank you for being you xx

Until next time..........